enigmatic

I can't believe you just said that Why are you always about stabbing me in the back Is there anyway to leave the past behind? Give up playing these games with my mind. Wash these tears away in the wind In the end no one ever wins Subjecting ourselves to such torture In mind and soul we've just sunk lower How many things I've wanted to say It's just a question of how brave How daring we are sometimes When the words are quicker then our eyes Everyday has this reoccurring fight Starts at wakeup when you draw your knives What did I ever do to make you this mad I could have been the best friend you ever had.

Recuperation By: Kristian Wiseman Faded memory in the hall Voice don't stand out at all Remembering the songs we knew I will never forget you I've been struggling in finding where I stay I've been repeating the words that you use to say I've been seeing your reflection in my face But I still miss you each and every single day Remember the days spent in the sand Five years old, bucket and shovel in hand Days when nothing went wrong And days when we didn't even get along I've been struggling in finding where I stay I've been repeating the words that you use to say I've been seeing your reflection in my face But I still miss you

//… Fuck all you own.  All your cheap jewels and porno magazines. Cry out at night.  Breathe in your tears and feel worse Scream at your dog.  She's a bitch anyway. Jump into the air.   Nothing's thick enough to catch you. Lie lame in despair.  You know you're hopeless. Rape your mind.  It raped you when you were asleep. Masturbate to music.  The rhythm you can't reproduce. Murder all you sought.  Your anticipation kills you. Blame the one who told you.  Because I deserved it. Rinse and Repeat. //….. Kristian

Cataclysmic sub ornate civilization Tomorrow dawns with new hope But sets in an all-to-familiar din A sigh of relief and prosperity Followed by a crash of thunder Fortitude in repercussions of yesterday Yesteryear seemingly distant Where tomorrow was today A moan of gratitude Crushed by father time Bound by belonging Separated by sovereignty Conflicting chains of will A whimper of jaded truths Cataclysmic fortitude bound in it's use.

Mandy's Escape – Kristian Wiseman (enigmatic) A moment of caution entered the air as she sang to herself She knew that it was going down She knew that it wasn't going to be pretty A word of advice she told herself as she waited She knew that she shouldn't panic She knew that she would anyway A innocent tear caught in the moonlight She saw how life painted a picture She saw how many people would miss her A fear of tomorrow had set in She saw how to escape it She saw it without her A letter of recognition was left She knew that wouldn't help She knew this was how she felt A split second of regret as it was ended She knew she sh

It's a lie – Kristian Wiseman (enigmatic) Verse 1 And I gasp for air And you're nowhere to be seen It's not fair My dependencies limit me again Verse 2 It holds me down And I try and grow my wings again No one's around Took my head out for a spin Verse 3 Am I not aware? This loneliness is killing me Why did you stare? Can't you just let me be? (surprise… no one's around surprise… I'm left all alone now) Chorus Just give me one good reason why You handed me wings and told me to fly Soap box racer has bottomed out Sparks are flying but no one's around And now all I can hear them shout Your takeoff runway is still more so

//..Falter Drops of sorrow fall Hit hot asphalt to change form The resin a sickly sweet Now powder with no illusion (where is my path?) Eyes wander over it all Thoughts question the action The mouth tasting defeat Tomorrow dies like today (die) I lost faith in another day Realization of a touch Hands slipping through the sands of time Grasping for anything with purpose …